I’ve been thinking a lot about spirituality recently. Perhaps it’s because of the changing season. Or maybe because Hallowe’en is just around the corner. In among all the costume planning, pumpkin carving and spooky story-telling, something deeper has been speaking to me.
I’ve always been interested in the powerful forces of nature, the signs of the zodiac and the spiritual world. Up until now though, I’ve only tentatively dabbled.
As a child, I was taught that Catholicism was the only true belief to have, as far as spirituality was concerned. Anything pertaining to other-worldliness that didn’t involve God or the Saints was looked upon as evil. Because of this, I’ve grown up with a slight fear of spirits – a fear that I desperately want to overcome. I’ve struggled with the Catholic faith for about sixteen years now, and I’m finally ready to admit to myself that it maybe just isn’t for me. I don’t presume that those who believe in it are wrong, just that it’s not for everyone.
I love the natural world and (without sounding like a cliché) feel at home with the forces of nature. It ties in with the more sustainable, eco-friendly, kind-to-nature life that I’m trying to lead too. As a typical Piscean, I have a strong sixth sense/gut instinct, which I’m ready to explore more.
I’m currently reading up on the Wiccan way of life, to see if it’s something that agrees with me. From what I’ve gleaned so far, it focuses on nature and the elements. Some say it is a religion, while others disagree. It also seems to have a few different branches; some follow a strict teaching, while others seem to go with the flow. I’m looking for something in line with the latter. I don’t want to follow another strict religion. I just want to be me, ebbing and flowing with the elements.
The journey to find me is an ongoing one. Feeling freed from the shackles of organised religion is a big step in this journey. Who knows where it will take me next!